hey guys!

you know, i really hate it when girls act like idots around the ppl they love. it drives me nuts. why the hell do act like a total ding bat?! you arent impressing him. and i know you all are going " you do too" and the answer to that, no i do not. i might act goofy, but i dont go flutter my eyes at him and go " can you help me with this?" as your pointing at you untied shoes.i mean, my sister did it with her bf and she totally bloked me out, and hurt me a lot. and now, my mom is doing it, and i am starting to feel blocked out, and it is scaring me, a lot. i dont liek being alone, one of my greatest fears. about my mom, she is like my best friend, she has helped me through some crap. and i can feel her going off with this guy and it scares me a lot. right now they are in the other room, but i dont want to go, because mom is going to ask "whats wrong?" and what am i supposed to tell her " oh yeah mom, your actingl iek a total dingbat and it is really pissing me off" right, like i am going to say that. i hate this crap, seriously. and i have been really happy for a while. what also is really pissing me off is being taken from. i am tired of being empty because ppl take and dont give back. it really pisses me off. alright, i am done venting, i feel a little better, i guess i should talk to mom about how this is irretateing me. well, thanks guys for geting me straight....i think, lol. bye guys!!!